Sriza
March 14, 2025
I lay hollow, untamed in this cloud, too cozy for me to move
The walls too close to feel the wind that hovers screaming the stretches of glory behind this caving
I lower my roof every time I give up, and every time I comfort my tears with pointing finger to what lays beyond that wall
My cloud thickens, the roof drops and the walls tighten and a word disappears from what elucidates my being
This vicious loop i live in an endless scroll with tiring eyes
My mind races with pulsating dopamine hits, and ear buzzes with repeating sounds
AM I ALIVE? AM I SINKING? IS THE DOOR OPEN? ARE THE WINDOWS BLINKING?
My soulless journey, a flowing river, I drift as wood through the turns and flicker and get caught in edge, in rocks, in leaves, but go unnoticed, unclaimed, uncared
Coz my world, I have, is a windowless sphere
And it shrinks every time I go with fear, and eliminate the subjects and curate the ease
My being is two lettered m and e
And sometimes when forbidden darkness dawns, I repeat the algorithm, I repeat I drown
In my world of lost cause, in this sinking ship
Blocking the airways, crushing all things
It seems I am too blind to world beyond ease.